Day Number Six;

So I haven't written in a couple of days. So naturally you can guess, quite a bit has happened. So let me start off by saying, every single military girlfriend/wife has told me to stay busy. That way my mind is focused on other things and not ALWAYS on my soldier. So I decided to take on the project of re-doing my baby sisters room! So here I'll show you before and after pictures of it:

BEFORE:

AFTER:

So as you can see, it took quite a bit. But it was really fun! :) So I recommend, if you're just starting out in the military family, keep yourself busy. Right a story, paint a room, surround yourself with friends and family who care. And although they might not understand why you wake up at 5 in the morning to text him when sleep sounds so great, they still love you.

Which leads me to my next topic:

HE CALLED ME YESTERDAY!

Okay, whooo. I got that out of the way. But anyways, yes, he did in fact call me yesterday. At first I didn't know it was him. He called off of a private number, so it kinda threw me off for a second. But we talked for a while and might I say, hearing his voice made me realize exactly WHY I go through this. Why I go through the distance, and loneliness, and crying; because I love the man that serves our country. I love the man who chose to go through this 15 week ass beating, to keep me safe. And I love the man that I call MY soldier. So we got to talk last night, and he called me this morning at 2 o'clock my time. And we texted for a little bit until he had to go. And then he got about an hour downtime 8 o'clock his time, 5 o'clock my time. So we talked for a bit and texted  quite a bit. Although I think he said they might take his phone tonight. :( Not looking forward to that.

Me and my close friend Felisa made army blankets last night. They're the knot blankets, the one that you don't have to sew. And in my opinion, they came out SO good. One side is all Army affiliated stuff, and the other side for mine is pink, and hers is purple. We had fun. :) Not too hard to make at all.

 

You see, they look good huh? We slept with them last night. Warm as all hell. :)

Anywho, right now I'm not doing too well. :( I feel so alone today and even though I am able to talk to him and text him, I'm just not okay. I feel as if he's having fun. He talks about how much he likes it and how funny things are and he's made a bunch of friends; whereas I'm not that well off. I'm miserable. Yes, I am making the best of a shitty situation, but I'm so far from "okay". On the upside, he sent me 2 letters. I'm waiting for them in the mail. :) Very excited to see what they say. I cannot wait!

Well, I'm done here for now. Maybe I'll write another one tonight before bed. :)

"A soldier doesn't fight because he hates what is in front of him...A soldier fights because he loves what he left behind."

                                                                                              

Day Number Two;

Today was a bit harder than yesterday. :( I got to talk to him for the last time today, and it was extremely hard! We talked on and off and I knew in the back of my head after every phone conversation, "That could have been my last call." And I was blessed every time that phone rang again. Although tonight I must have cried for 20 minutes straight! I was talking to him and I told him how much I loved him and how proud of him I was and we hung up the phone. We texted for a little bit and then all of a sudden it STOPPED. Just stopped. Mid-conversation, it was done.
I sat there dumbfounded. There was SO much more I wanted to tell him, although I've told him everything a million times before.
Anyways, I found out today from a very nice Army Girlfriend that he will more than likely get a 36-hour pass after his boot camp where I can fly and see him.
Ugh, I get so irritated because everything everyone have told me thus far has always been so different with my Soldier. :( I just wish things would be the same.
On the upside, I got some cute stickers and stationary stuff to write him. I just hope he's not having too terrible of a time.
4 more months Katie, 4 more months and you will be back in his arms again where you are so desperately longing to be. <-- That right there, is MOTIVATIONAL speak. Something I need to continue. I'm always so negative.
One last comment before I head off to bed; I found the Fort Benning website and was THRILLED to find short 5 minute videos of everything my Soldier will be going through. It made me realize that he's not leaving me to take a vacation. Some of the things I watched were tough and life changing. I am SO very proud of him and might I say, I could not ask for a better man in my life that I am able to call mine. <3
HOOAH!

Day Number One; because I'm a dork.

Hey there Steven Ray,
What's it like at Fort Benning?
I'm 2110 miles away,
But boy tonight you are so handsome,
Yes you are,
The Desert can't shine as bright as you,
I swear it's true.

Hey there Steven Ray,
Don't you worry about the distance,
I'm right there if you get lonely,
Give this post another look and,
Close your eyes,
Look at my words it's my disguise,
I'm by your side.

Oh it's what you do to me,
Oh it's what you do to me,
Oh it's what you do to me,
Oh it's what you do to me,
What you do to me.

Hey there Steven Ray,
I know times are getting hard,
But just believe me boy some day,
I'll pay the bills with this pretty face,
We'll have it good,
We'll have the life we knew we would,
My word is good.

Hey there Steven Ray,
I've got so much left to say,
If every simple post I wrote to you,
Would take your breath away,
I'd write it all,
Even more in love with me you'd fall,
We'd have it all.

Oh it's what you do to me,
Oh it's what you do to me,
Oh it's what you do to me,
Oh it's what you do to me.

2110 miles seems pretty far,
But they've got planes and trains and cars,
I'd walk to you if I had no other way,
Our friends would all make fun of us,
And we'll just laugh along because,
We know that none of them have felt this way,
 Steven I can promise you,
That by the time that we get through,
The world will never ever be the same,
And you're to blame.

Hey there Steven Ray you be good,
And don't you miss me,
Four more months and you'll be done with bootcamp,
And I'll be making history,
Like I do,
You'll know it's all because of you,
We can do whatever we want to,
Hey there Steven Ray here's to you,
This one's for you.

Oh it's what you do to me,
Oh it's what you do to me,
Oh it's what you do to me,
Oh it's what you do to me,
What you do to me.

Ohhh

Day Number One;

Today is the first day I am without my Soldier. I'm not gonna lie, last night was tough. It was the first time I had slept alone in the past 6 months, besides a night here and there when we would be away. But knowing that last night started the nights of MANY that I will be alone, made it really hard to fall asleep. I tossed and turned all night.
He's still at MEPS, which does in fact mean I can still talk to him. For the last day. Tomorrow morning my Soldier will be on a plane to Georgia. He will complete his bootcamp and AIT at Fort Benning. Which just for a little piece of mind, is OVER 2100 miles away from me. I'm scared. I'm terrified. All the things we used to do together, I will now do, alone.
I have a baby sister that slept in my bed with me last night, and when we woke up this morning she turns to me and says, "Sissy, play Angry Birds." I start playing Angry Birds and I keep missing. And having to restart. And continued to restart the same level over and over and over again. I started to remember, he would always beat the levels for me. And then I got to thinking. He used to do a lot for me that I will now have to conquer alone. He can no longer get my coffee, and burn my breakfast, and beat the levels I can't beat, and lay in bed with me all day and make funny faces, and make fun of me, and tackle me, and tell me I'm beautiful when I know I look like crap, and fall asleep with me, and wake up with me in the morning.
He sent me a text last night that not only made me cry, but made me see how much he really loves me:
"I'm still yours and always will be. I love you so much and never want to lose you. I'm sorry for putting you through this. Please don't hate me :("
At that moment, I felt SO selfish. But not only did I feel selfish, it hit me that he is the one. He will be the one I marry. I just have to get through these next 4 months. I just need to suck it up, and know that it's going to be EXTREMELY hard, but he's making this sacrifice for the both of us. He is the one enduring 4 months of hell for the both of us. So we can ultimately have and do all the things we want in life without having to struggle with minimum wage jobs we both hate.
So I guess I started this blog to maybe take my mind off of all the negativity, and focus more on the positivity. Because everyday I blog, gets me one step closer to being back in my soldiers arms again.